2020-01-31

Up, Uranus!!





for the magician, time & energy are the real currency




















what if becumming a mutant from the future were a choice..? would you sign up? it wouldn't be easy, mind ewe. you might even have the weight of the past bearing against u. 

OK, b(LL)oomer?

well, cum to the gnostic world view
















...the Earth spirits are taking a stand for Her nature & cutting out many power structures that aren't serving Her higher good, in the masculine...but she's also at war with Herself, for she has to remain soft to an extent to catch all those who fall...& she will be fertilized by the ashes of the dead, but she will mourn heavily for each fallen piece...though she feeds on Death, Life is her Love














The Old Order ended on January 1st, 2020. What we are witnessing now, as you sit here reading this, is the birth pangs of the new. And you have a front seat to watch it, TOO ;












Here, there, where the light of our soul rays forth out the eyes spreading, branching in two streams forward fast into infinite space; disappearing there before these, our eyes, the w(h)orld and ITs light. There are two vanishing points in our normal vision, one for either of the ocular apparati, and the visual rays form a base space like this.



















The geometry of the senses is most easily, perhaps only, approachable through that of sight - but we can conjoin the others in a synaesthetic appreciation of the environing energies, fitted, shaped, into a form appropriate for cognition what must be another variety of human sense.





The conscious receiver is an assemblage point of the various inputs coming through the body, and we must treat it as such in order to have a unified understanding of our position in this realm of possibility made real and actual. The visual field, although formed of two holes into which the light may flux and efflux, giving depth, can be unified in a third - and we have a circular field of shade and color in various shapes, centered and held together.




Taking then our body, we must discard the learned notion that our sense of skin extends in three dimensional space as a surface, and feel it as also centered in a point. Hearing, instead of having a localized center, extends into the abyss of space as a string is taut on an instrument - it's center at infinity. These three senses, we can see, are each at right angles to the others: eyes and sight circular ahead, a vertical body in lineament sourcing the heights and depths, and the ears on either side of the head forming a furthest away plane, two sides yet united.




If we can take all the feelings and assign them as points in a space of five dimensions, one for each sense, we can see that our state of being at any instant can wholly be described as one of these points in the space of possible human being(s).





An instrument where,
Spirit plays and sulfur,
Stays; till, until the end
Of days - many a one have sought
The sun, that few have dared attain.


















Don't forget
They can't win
Unless we let them








Shelter

Just a breeze in the current…

Always synching the belt.

A symbol of illusion, stripped of mercy,
relentlessly clawing at your wrist.

To deny the rebirth of self,
shrapnel on the field -
of ambition’s fall.

If your oath isn’t battle against them, then surely you oppose yourself.
An unrelenting drift.

Forget the demon – the brand of desire.
Omit the savior that leads you into the fire.

Turn the lock from inside.
I can win angst – you – I – against.

Eroded mask once mine(d).

The tower implores into the alter of self,
The cult of I - is all….
…the same stars of which they speak lead us to realms and lands so glorious….
Bequeathed to any…

..and all - to become cinder under our hand.

You curse their name,
because you are the same.
Heroes must always be forgotten,
 lost along the way.

If you are on the wave,
then you’re bound not to s(t)ay…..

Hero is the place you stood up to yourself.

Kick the starter switch,
awaken in the ditch.
Ain’t being a bitch?

A repetitious redundancy,
-           relentless calamity.
Caged in self.
Reluctant reanimation,
void of destination.
Stale on the shelf.

What do you expect from the savior bound to your tongue,
under  watch (and) of your gun?

Rainbows defiled.
Anxiety gone wild,
my only child..

If I’m still a pothole on this pilgrimage,
then bury me in the lie I’ve been sold.
Our cards, under the stars will unfold,
an organism of inconsistencies,
boldly blind.

Ain’t never been told,
a method without a fold.

On the stone of memory’s grace,
shines the caption
“Here Lies, the Searching Beguiled.”

Don’t ask me about intention, don’t look for relief.
I can promise nothing else,
beyond the fall.

When the walls cum down on your back,
and the screams drown beneath the stack……

Atoms split.
Animals spit.
Ego will hit,
on the tit,
below the belt.

But in the end,
no matter the game,
It’s your pelt.,
all the same…













Don’t forget to check your polarities at the door

We be flippin stuff





















& is it me, or is it getting colder? not outside, we gnow that's getting hot but like inside,
if you're looking for a friend to be there, or a lover to hold at the end of the world







shades (thusly named because he was shady af, but only from a certain boomer perspective) was lucky enough to live in interesting times, as the old Chinese curse went.


In the last daze of the old order, he was a member in good standing of the we were never (w)here order, and thus committed to birthing a new world order, a new aeon, an age of Aquarius if you will, but one aimed at helping people to grow rather than indenturing & enslaving them..
























have you considered the possibility that it's frying pans & fires @LL the way down..? Or up for that matter..cuz may be u should









2019-12-25

(from) uranus, choronzon







what if the devil thinks he's God













Crucified on the cross of space and time, we find ourselves defined by the magic lines that ray in on our point of birth: a set of circumstances - personalities and objects. An arena for action with attendant reactions, things that have been forgotten or that were never known. We are questions being answered, and the more and greater questions we pose, the greater the solicited response.

We have been told stories divested of their original meanings, and stories whose meanings have yet to work themselves out in our (collective) lives. We take in stories and attempt to make them our own; each a hero (anti-hero) or villain in any particular tale. Personalities that are larger than life live large in our minds and hearts, grafting pieces of themselves into our psyches. We try to fit the world into the stories we’ve grown up with - try to fit ourselves into the story, and some stories are intellectual poisons and worms.

The need for human meaning in our lives is only answered by living in a story and having a purpose greater than oneself, a community, a goal, and something to struggle and strive for. But these lived stories fall back and are replaced by second-hand passive viewings of actors on screens. Entertainment or entrainment, the addiction to stories is real and supplants the fear of living with a vicarious life lived scripted.

Still, there are those who are truly actors and who build the world(s) that others live in and uphold. There IS a real story and conversation taking place that has defined, and is defining, reality for the untold billions, content to fall into rote existence.

These actors who set the conversation of the masses, in order to get to those positions, must be able to passably fit into a leading role, if only facetiously, in the lives in the collective mind of a people. Either an existing story, or must be able to begin a new one, and history repeats and rhymes because the same stories are retold for generations.

These stories require protagonists and antagonists - tales that elicit emotion and emotive action and the grand displays of heroes. Any good story requires a conflict to develop the lines, and coupled with the intense need of humans for stories, ideally to be lived, is why peace always seems so distant. For most, peace is boring: us vs them is infinitely more fun it would seem.






















& After 22 cums 33..hee





vanguard  psychonautik shamanik unit 22, search & rescue (or how i earned my 33 degree)




& now begins our performance of the gnostic m(y)ass




wtf is a (d)evilution anywho?





As per Kenneth Grant, the "sephira that is not", Da'ath, corresponds to the planet Uranus.

& to day we see every where signs of dis content with an old order that everybody gnows has failed every last one of its adherents. Yes, even the haves.



ever noticed that the only difference between an inmate & a head of state is the quality of the food? both are enslaved, maybe even by one an other.


..but where can we go from hear? what is to be done..how can we over come such challenges?





















- Why don't you polish it up a bit..?
- Polished shit is still just shit











...




I'm very wary of this attempt to make the occult into a new age, like, happy happy thing..not when there is very little evidence to suggest that the highest initiations in the ancient mysteries weren't actual life or death challenges..it's almost an insult to those great initiates of yesterday, and indeed today, to say that if you break a  nail during an initiation then it's being done wrong..



















Occultism with teeth, mofo. Not like that stale ass, weak ass shizz







I've died so many times I've lost count




& you, u think to fight monsters without becoming one? a foolish thought. 






So I met some f'ed up Masons like those guys in doctor sleep in Van & I like was waging an energy battle with them.. Needless to say they one..pretty sure they were in cahoots with the courts two cuz i'm still re:covering from @LL that jazz.




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your "freedom" is a lie; you just want an excuse to waste time




..it took her awhile to real eyez what those people who died on the TV screen really were..








(w)odin







Listen through the crest of roaring ego.

Become blind

to the lies of tomorrow beaten through me.

Inflicted by the acceptance of oblivion.

Swallowed by the bog of guilt.

Beckoned by the sirens of shame.

Pickled beneath the skin.

My only wings are the whisperings of wyverns…

“Don’t be afraid of the consciousness whi(t)ch you were told will guzzle the soul alive.”


The light is never still.


Devotion to singular pleasures (patterns),

(mis)guides to shores where

the placebo swings

the strings

to stop.


The snake swallows a demon,

then plucked by a hawk,

who kneels to the robed ram.

Who in turn abates

to mist….

……from the myths

impressed by the dragon of desire.




If you hear me, then fear me.

For I bubble from the well of same.

















I actually really like a woman who can take charge..& it's not a sexist or even a reverse sexist thing, nor yet a weak male riding the coat tails of a stronger woman thing..but more a this is how a woman was @LL ways meant two 🐝 ..hence, the "solar woman"..I think Crowley also dreamed (of(?)) her..may be he was disappointed that back then, there were so few..(?)



















so you're counterculture cuz u liked Anti-Flag? cum on now, your (w)hole page is an ad










Lux Luciferi = LL = Legba Lodge=LL=Liliths Love = LL= Legba Lodge=





2019-11-22

her Lilithing v(o)ise: a Truebadaurik f(uck)all-y





..they all too conveniently forget that it was we who were being gangstalked first..so we were forced to become esoterical gangsters, just to defend..not even ourselves, but rather what was truly valuable in this world..the future. the children..the causes of truth, beauty, justice..





- so are they a (esoterical) gang or a (bioenergetic(al?)) band..?





what's the difference..? what's it got to do with u anyhow..? both & neither & neither neither nor both.. what's so nuclear physics about that..








& is there no won who could help a poor, black widow's sun..?








that guy's a spirit gang all by him self















How do events that are inevitable live and play out in time. A thing will happen without fail, although exactly how may yet to de determined. 


Each and every one of us will inevitably die, unless perhaps the fact that we are not already dead, whatever that means, indicates the possibility of eternal life. 


This singular event, like that of birth, has its time and moment - where our personality and its attendant active possibilities pass from the world of sense, but this is all within the realm of third-person science. 


From our own point of view, it is not us, or at least not all that makes us up, but rather the world itself that faces oblivion. 


If we place primacy on our own experience and what is immediately before us, we can come to where we may have a chance at the beginnings of a first-person science and a first step in that understanding is a mediation on our death in relation to our life and birth. 


For us as individuals lacking a memory that can reach before birth or a foresight that can see beyond death, the extent of the world lies between those two points in time. TRULY the world began with our gestation and ends with our apparent demise. 


This world of which we seem.apart, is truly a part of us - a reflection, emanation, and extension of our inner most being; the structure and laws of operation of which find their growth and development in an internal logic of mind and being: the natives could not see the ships on the sea. 


Our deep-seated assumptions give form the world we live in, and this is accepted in as far as social and cultural things are concerned; but it goes even further. 


By letting go of these notions, often received from third parties, and by getting to the patterns whereby our reality itself is ordered, we can replace or amend them with new structures. 


From the uncertainty and chaos that comes from acknowledging and admitting what one does not know, other things can be made to arise. 


Change yourself and you change the world - in its most potent form. 




Why and where the interminable battle for belief unless some potent force lies concealed there - various “gods” receiving form from the minds that entertain and attend to them.








who wouldn't want to be Jung forever?













look at what those LL fucks have done now; a whole issue of their publication about vaginas.. buncha f'in' pervs..


















you dark mother (fucker!) u








"Chaos never died. Primordial uncarved block, sole worshipful monster, inert & spontaneous, more ultraviolet than any mythology (like the shadows before Babylon), the original undifferentiated oneness-of-being still radiates serene as the black pennants of Assassins, random & perpetually intoxicated.


No, listen, what happened was this: they lied to you, sold you ideas of good & evil, gave you distrust of your body & shame for your prophethood of chaos, invented words of disgust for your molecular love, mesmerized you with inattention, bored you with civilization & all its usurious emotions.


Agents of chaos cast burning glances at anything or anyone capable of bearing witness to their condition, their fever of lux et voluptas. I am awake only in what I love & desire to the point of terror — everything else is just shrouded furniture, quotidian anaesthesia, shit-for-brains, sub-reptilian ennui of totalitarian regimes, banal censorship & useless pain.

Avatars of chaos act as spies, saboteurs, criminals of amour fou, neither selfless nor selfish, accessible as children, mannered as barbarians, chafed with obsessions, unemployed, sensually deranged, wolfangels, mirrors for contemplation, eyes like flowers, pirates of all signs & meanings."



- Hakim Bey, The Temporary Autonomous Zone









LL shadow shamanik unit represent





contagion









Words only lead to confusion,



Emotions lead inward,


And logic? Well….it’ll spin you right back round again – where else?

Shattering this equation the easiest part.

Take something that you love, and break it down to the essentials.


Then will you see the essentials are only ideals, and you are not platonic.
Once you break this to yourself, you strip the gold from the lead.

And only then does the stone shine.

Never forget that I am not you, nor I

most of the time.



If you want to absorb my flesh and pick this soul clean you best realize that I’m first in line.



All the beings left behind – specters chained around my neck.


Waterlogged with hyperbole and byproducts of anticipation.

The waking dream is every terror you’ve seen.



So lucid, it’s hollow.




Children whisper that she comes in the night,
Adults cower during the day,
The dead rejoice, and praise her.
For they are free of fear, and her grip.




Destruction is made necessary by ego. No ego? No death.
I have no code beyond you.
Coffins are for nails, not minds….I am a dustpan.
An organ of resurgence.







KaliMe









the initiated commentary 
..in the mode of Arbitrary Aphorisms; a stream of consciousness flow(T)ing






..our boy Kenny G(rant) & his crew, a secret cell of postmodern Shaktas (goddess worshippers in disguise)..that's why that old boys' club oTo hated him, even unconsciously..


..i often feel your energy quite tangible here in my temple..something like flowers or exotic herbs & spices..exotic, that is, by the standards of my temple, which more often smells of brimstone..lol


..sometimes when Grant talks about secretions, he's not talking about a physical substance but an astral substance. my own position on the matter is that these indeed substances..just really fine, subtle ones..so Grant basically says women emit an atral aroma, which then attracts men, like bees..you gnow..to their flowers -Bb


..the tantrik is one who faces their fears head on, in order to truly banish them..instead of running away & pretending that it's their fears that have disappeared..


..according to certain teachings of the school of Bertiaux, advanced esoteric vudu practitioners are like vampires also, in that their astral anatomy has been opened up by removing ego boundaries, traumatic encrustations & waht Reich might call character armour..so they can't help but absorb ambient energy from their surroundings..




..i once saved this beginning witch from an abusive relationship..so then her dark agenda hypnotist ex walks into my house, all like "you turned her against me"..& he was moments from breaking a baseball bat over my head, but i did some bioenergetic work on him he won't soon forget, I imagine..never heard from or saw him again..



..death travels thru the shadows of this world; the dead certainly do..













step onto her poison path. go on, lets see how long you last








re:birth of the solar woman by way of Uranus (i.e. the back of the t(h)ree)








"One has been a bad student of life if one has not also seen the hand that kills, but considerately"


- Freddy Wil Nietzsche, beyond good & evil







"O tell me all about
Anna Livia! I want to hear all
about Anna Livia. Well, you know Anna Livia? Yes, of course,
we all know Anna Livia. Tell me all. Tell me now. You'll die
when you hear. "

-





- James Joyce, finnegans wake
"Look how big her psychic dick is, this chic"




Where's 11? He's lost in 22's crack & he may never come back..



"I heard her soul song,
 & at that point I was gone"


She B the black mirror me






All I want is your attention
Your affection
Your distinctive inflection..














confession? since we've met, I've lavished like all my 'spare' time on u..I'm literally all ways working..& I the opposite of regret every second..nor do I 'expect' anything in return

*that's gotta be the 10..that line genuinely deserves a 10! (cuz it's sincere, sea?)*


& when we're frolicing like this in our transdimensional bliss I'm ok with death because that's just the word for when this ends

my altar is on the inner..& you're it (come on now, cum on..that was 8 or 9ish, for a line!)



"I wish I gnew, 22, I wish I knew..why being around u feels like home & why being without u is so cold & alone"



..beloved, if I'm hard on you, it's because I gnow what you're capable of & I, yes even I, am terrified..

..&, whatsit? handle you..oh, I'll handle u missy..with the care reserved only for the religious votary attending to his own patron Gnostic saint..



& u thought i didn't have a move, after putting my foot in my mouth so meticulously..well, that's the difference between a (w)hack job & a black vudu wizard, isn't it p



get this yo, so then this natural witch chic smoov as a sniper assassin asks me how big my fist is, so then I says, "in Kenny the one is the many G(rant)ese: depends..how sharp is your eye?" liike, lol, right??








& when I'm with you like that in our own magickal universe i forget pornhub exists & if that isn't love, well who cares about love anyway












ewe, me & the devil makes 3
('cept the Devil is She)

















postcoital: Zen in the art of memetik craftsmanship




actually we'll hold off on writing about this till the next issue, eh p



(by which they meant that the (sub)text had been written, but on the astral, & that those who were capable would be able to attune thereto & to access it on that level ; )










for Soror Ilyarun






all art in this issue save for 'contagion' & 'KaliMe' by Eliza Stave, more of whose work is on display at https://www.instagram.com/eliza_stave/